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In your hands, you hold over 30 years of my poetry. These poems were born out of joy, pain, love, agony, lust and anger. They begin when I was a very young girl, and span into adulthood, marriage, divorce and motherhood.

I invite you to share in the passion that has ruled my untamed heart for many years.

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A Letter To My Love Upon Leaving

I am only an hour away from you, and I can feel an unsettled pit in my stomach. I know that we will only be a part for a week, and yet this feels as if it’s forever. I haven’t felt this kind of ache in many years. I love our new home together, and I hate that I must leave you to take care of business.

I remember the first time I felt an ache like this. I was only a young girl, and moving away from my first love. I remember feeling as though my heart would fall out of my chest. I couldn’t breathe. Years later, I felt it again when my lover left me. I feel both happy and sad that I have this ache. I have become so divorced from my feelings for so long, that it is nice to know that I can still be affected. It is terrible, though, feel this pain.

I just want to turn my car around and rush back to you. I know that I could. I know that I could just run away from my obligations, and come back to you. I won’t, though. To do so would be to betray who and what I am. I cannot do that in good conscience.

These next couple of months are going to be more challenging than I anticipated. I cannot believe that I will have to leave you every week for the next several months. I can only hope that these separations will make us stronger. I love you, my love. I will miss you, but I will also be back.


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Last Night In Town

As I drive around the city that I have called home for the past seven years, it occurs to me, that this is my last day that I will call this home. Tomorrow, I will be moving to a new city.

It is quite familiar, and a little strange. I feel almost bittersweet. It is almost, anti-climatic. I feel as though I need to have some sort of commemoration for this moment.

The thing is, I will be saying goodbye to this place for months. Since I am still working my business, and expect to be for the next several months, I will not officially be gone. It feels like the long, slow goodbye. I am in a half-state. I am not quite a resident, and not quite an outsider.

These thoughts hit me as I was sitting eating a late lunch. In this city, we have many seasonal visitors, who are desperate to make connections with others. I overhear them sitting at the bar, using voices just beyond a polite level, desperately hoping that someone will engage them. I will be that person as of tomorrow. The city we have chosen is surrounded by familiar territory, and yet it is completely new. I find myself wondering if my grocery store will carry the products that I have grown to love and depend upon. I wonder who my new friends will be and how long it will take for me to make them. I wonder how far to the newest movie theater. I think about all of my “people,” and how I am going to have to find new “people.”

With all of this said, I am excited. My brain is going a million miles a minute. I’ve been thinking about my business, my friends, my life, my partner, my child. I’ve been wondering if I would like my new home. It is exciting, and I can’t even say that I’m afraid, I guess I am just wondering what my new life will look like.

Sometimes, these resets are necessary. This will be our opportunity to start a new narrative. Will I be a massage therapist? Will I find a place to work? Will I get involved with the business community? Will I just stay quiet for a while? I plan to go back and forth between cities for the next couple of months. I wonder when I will get tired. I wonder when it will no longer be lucrative. I also know I will miss my friends and clients. I guess I feel vaguely sad.

Finally, I am excited for the future. This will truly be a clean slate for my partner and I. We will be starting out fresh terrain and equal footing. What will this mean for us? How will our roles be redefined? Stay tuned!

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Thoughts on Heather

I have received a couple of questions about the circumstances of Heather’s death.

Heather was a military wife, and had a back injury. Since she and her husband lived on the base, the base hospital was more than happy to hand out opioids like candy. Over the course of the next couple of years, she became more and more addicted to pain medication, all under the supervision of the military hospital doctors. Finally, as a result of the many problems she was facing due to her prescription pill addiction, she just couldn’t cope any longer.

As a massage therapist, I have had clients with many pain issues. I have been forced to confront my anger and disgust with prescription drug addiction. I reserve most of my anger for “pain management” that essentially is an insurance-backed drug dealer. People suffer injuries, stress, and chronic conditions.

I wholeheartedly endorse having medication available for those who need it. What I hate, though, is that it is dispensed with no long-term treatment plan. I know people that wear pain patches for years and there is no plan to wean them off of the medication, use physical therapy, surgeries, or massage therapy. Pain medication MUST be a PART of a treatment plan – NEVER a long-term solution.

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Heather http://www.countdowntofreedom.net/2009/04/heather-httpskkmbswordpresscom20090430h.html

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