I’ve been thinking a lot about why I’m still pining for my ex-lover. I think part of it is the ego blow. I think another part of it is that we went out socially pretty much every night, so he was my regular entertainment. More than that, though, I think he represents a part of my life that I’m moving away from.
I can feel my energy shifting, and I think there is a nostalgia for my old life. He is the male version of me, or who I was. I am finding that I want to evolve, though. He is not willing to work on himself, so he will stay where he is. That’s his path and his choice. I cannot make him change or see what he does not want to see. I think I am finally able to let him go for good.