Hi my love,
How are you doing? I hope it’s good. It’s now Saturday night, 9 p.m. or so, and I’m so sad and lonely and I miss you so much. It’s driving me crazy. I can’t even get on the phone to hear your sexy voice. I hate feeling this way, like there’s no hope and there’s nothing I can do. I wish I was holding you in my arms, kissing your sweet lips. You mean so much to me. It hurts not being able to hold or touch you. Nothing feels right without you by my side, my love.
I really do love you with all my heart and soul, and I can’t wait to be with you again. I just wish things didn’t have to be this way. We were so happy and everything was going so good for us. I can’t believe how hard this is on me. I’m missing you like crazy. I truly believe I will be out on the 21st, but what if I don’t. I told C. that if I lose you and my truck and job I would most likely just move back home, but I can’t stand the thought of not having you in my life. You mean so much to me already. You make me want to be and do better for both of us. I can’t even begin to tell you how happy you make me, my love. God, I just feel like crying right now. I can’t believe how lonely I feel right now. How much I need you and want you. I’m so sorry for all of this shit and all I can say is I will do all I can to make it up to you, my love.
Why does it have to hurt so much, my love? I just feel like there’s no hope for me right now.
I know you love me and miss me, too, baby, and all this is hard on you too. I never want to hurt you or be the reason you are hurting.
I’m so sorry, my love. I keep telling you to be strong and I know it’s so hard but I’m not going to let you down again, my love. You mean so much to me. I hope you know that.
Well, I’m going to go to bed. I’ll write you more Sunday.
Good night, my sexy love. I miss you so much, baby. I’ll be with you soon, my love.